Not sure if it's caused by my medication cocktail... Or whether the depression is just not under control!
Reminds me of my first memories of Bipolar actually affecting me at age 15. I could never get enough sleep. I remember I would never leave my bed from the time I got home from school til my actual bed time, I would do all my homework from my bed!
In my spare time I was not like normal teenagers, going out partying, talking on mobiles, shopping, socialising, hooking up with boys, using computers, surfing the internet etc.. I loved to be locked away in my bedroom reading books about horses! I had no energy to do anything else! On the weekends I was a night owl!! Staying up all night and sleeping till noon.
After about a year of this I remember mum got worried about me and decided to take me to many different doctors trying to find out what I had! So much blood was drawn from me, I had gotten use to blood tests.
Long story short the diagnosis was always either depression or chronic fatigue...
Mum, being a stout Christian did not believe in any form of medication. She believed in the power of Jesus Christ! (I believe in that too btw) So the depression continued and was left untreated till well past the birth of my first child!
But that is another story!
Now days I seem to still be stuck in bed! I have had spurts of energy (mania) where I love to work out... Then I loose interest and go back into depression! Sad really huh? It's ok tho because ATM I seem to be ok most days! I have been fine with getting up for part of the day and sitting in the kitchen! Wandering outside with my kids and Missy, just soaking in the scenery of my beautiful garden and the sound of my kids laughing and Missy barking!!
Well my loves! Till next time! Take care! Xox
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